A little bit of everything

Whew...
Today I had that feeling... you know the one, where your kid is crying and you just want to scream yourself, then shortly after feeling that way, I felt... like... I wanted to cry for thinking that my kid was so annoying.

The truth is... they cry... they whine... they want attention... they want you (mommy/daddy/papa/gramie) always...
The truth is... it is okay to be annoyed... it is okay to want to pee alone... it is okay to do the silent scream.
So... after the crying by Ellie... while I was trying to comb Hadley's hair. I picked her up and she had poo in her diaper, plus, I knew she was crying because she was ready to nap. But, the poo was more concerning, considering, she has a sore bottom from some constant poo. Here I am... silently screaming inside, while Ellie is screaming because her bottom hurts from her second poo of the day. She already poo'ed... So I wasn't thinking this could be another... I just thought she was tired. Turns out, I was wrong and then of course I went from the silent scream to the silent tear.

Work at the nursing home...
I picked up a short evening shift tonight to start off a 4 day nursing home adventure. I am confident it will go okay. The next three days are day shifts... I am not too thrilled about it and getting up at 5 am to work at 6 am is not my cup of tea either. But, what else is new, I get up at 5 am a lot these days for school as well as I barely sleep because the girls still wake up a ton.

Breastfeeding...
I don't think I blogged about this. I am done! I quit right before we went to Lutsen cabin. So my last day was June 28th. Ellie wasn't phased by this at all because when I quit she had Hand, Foot, Mouth disease as well as she was teething... so she didn't feel good at all, the nursing didn't help... so it was a perfect time to quit. However, I had milk for two weeks to follow. It wasn't super painful, but it was annoying. All good now... no hard boobs, no milk... I miss it! A lot! I cried that first night I stopped. I will never nurse again... super sad! I think that is the reason why I nursed Ellie until she was 15 months.

A&P...
I am almost done... two classes left of which one is the final. So really only a lab/lecture to go. I need to study. I am on the verge of getting an A, even after bombing my muscle's lab exam. But... I am thankful, my lecture is going well. If I get an A, I will be very pleased. I will also be more than please with a B. I am happy with either... it is a very hard class, and even harder to take in the summer considering one must learn so much in such a short time. So with that being said, I need to study a lot for the final. I plan to do this pretty much the Tuesday before, because I don't think I will want to do it after working these next three days...

Isle Days/Fun Run...
Great turn-out for both the fun run and our parade party. I got to say hi to a lot of people. Hadley loved getting candy this year. Ellie figured out that candy was yummy and screamed the whole parade to get some. Ellie slept through the fireworks. Hadley watched them with Nevaeh and Livia. Those three girls get along so well. It is adorable... they were sharing a baby, baby Sara to be exact and listening to their comments and conversation from afar while we were waiting for fireworks to begin was beyond cute. They would just giggle!

VBS...
This week Hadley went to Trinity for VBS. The first night was Sunday. Shanessa and I walked both gals down at 5pm. We were the first to arrive. We signed them up and had dinner with the girls. We were nervous... a) because we have never really left them somewhere without at least one of us being there and b) because they didn't really know anyone... this church is unfamiliar as well as the people. So, we were thankful that they were okay staying because they knew Abby and she was going to be a crew leader for the pre-school. Basically when the bell rang, it was time to go in for singing... Shanessa and I just watched the girls as the crew leaders found a pre-schooler to take up to music. Nevaeh went with Abby and Hadley went with Monica... they all four walked away and Shanessa and I just walked the other way... out the door. We walked back to our house and both of us were nervous. Abby could text if there was a problem, but we never got one and the girls continued to go every night for the whole week. Sunday through Thursday, 5:00-5:45 was dinner and then VBS until 8pm. Every night I was able to attend the evening skit and songs at 7:40pm, except tonight because I picked up that shift. But... Robert went... and I think Hadley was happy to know that Daddy was going to pick her up and see all her new friends!