Do I put makeup on for this?

Here I am ready to go to work, yes, it is almost 2am. I have a bowl of cereal and am waiting for a cup of joe to help me get started. I have my last icky orientation shift today and that is 2:30am to 11am. This shift doesn't exist in the world of hospitals, it is typically 11pm to 7:30am but with our orientation schedule they break the Noc shift up into two different shifts, since apparently one doesn't really learn all that much on a full Noc shift.
So I know that nursing is 24 hour care and I don't mind if I have to do this, I just don't want to do it all the time... Ha ha you might say, when I tell you down the road, that my schedule is all Nocs... but hopefully that is a last resort.
Anyway, I question myself everyday about this journey. I have had my second breakdown of tears and I know as I stated before that those tears will flow along the way. I mainly question if the timing is right, considering these are the younger years for Hadley and Ellie and I really don't want to miss them. I asked my Mom that same question last night and she said that I wasn't missing them, that every free moment I have outside of work and school I spend with them. I took that as I make sure I take time to be with them, for as you all know they are the very reason why I am doing this.
So Happy Valentines Day and of course I put makeup on for this!